Day One

I know it's been a while... but it's been a busy week. My baby turned three on Sunday and now I don't feel like I can call him my baby anymore...mostly because he told me he's not a baby anymore. Then, I got to spend an evening with my CRHP team. Even though it's only been a few weeks since we were together, I was so excited to see them and the fellowship did not disappoint!!

But today is Ash Wednesday. Today is the day that I begin my 40 days of rehabilitation. I'm calling it that because in essence, it's what I'm doing. I'm focusing on changing the way I look at my marriage, I'm changing the way I look at my family. I'm changing the way I interact with God. And finally, I'm changing the way I look at myself.

Day One of the Love Dare hasn't been too hard... though there was a moment that I almost said something to Louis, but instead, I took what he said in strides, and now, several hours later, I can't even remember what he said that irritated me. Which made me think: How often do I get upset about something that really isn't a big deal? And furthermore, how often does my getting upset about something make it into a big deal, when it wasn't one to begin with? And honestly, holding my tongue led to a much more relaxed day overall. Now, if it had been something that really bothered me, I would have waited until I had calmed down and addressed it with Louis, but obviously, it wasn't.

The boys and I played with Play-doo this afternoon, and I will admit, I got a little frustrated as I tried to teach them how to use this made in China plastic contraption. Actually, what bothered me more was how they mixed the different colors together into a brownish pile, but then I realized play-doo is cheap. I can make it myself or by 4 cans for $2.50, so really, who cares... we were having fun.

Finally, I am attempting to do the Rosary every night. I have a special place for Mary... she is the most selfless mother ever to walk the Earth. She raised a child knowing that someday, she would watch her child die at the hands of His enemy. And yet she never lost faith. I feel one way I can grow closer to her is to pay my respects.

All in all, it's been a great first day of Lent!